2nd June 2008 – Get up and go out

2^nd June 2008 – Get up and go out

I think that all this looking round on eBay and the internet in general is perhaps not the best motivation for getting a job. Looking at all the latest (or at least modern) technology and realising how badly you can’t afford it (where the price of the logo alone adds 15% to the cost of a product), fills me with want, but not drive. It’s the drive I’m missing. Well I assume so as I’ve heard basically nothing from what is now an impressionable list (and believe me I HAVE made a list) of employers not employing, albeit they maybe need time to waste for other candidates but time is something I simply don’t have.

There comes a time also when you realised something. It’s a midlife crisis thing where you realise you aren’t really doing anything with your life. You have all these dreams and desires and do nothing about them but keep them as dreams. Well today I made up my mind that hopefully next year I'm going to live one of my dreams.

When I was younger I liked animals. I really got into them, wanted (and infrequently got) cats, gerbils, even ferrets. Lovely animals each and every one, except when having more than one type at once, occasionally led to one becoming the others dinner. I'm getting sidetracked now. I could sit and watch nature programs for ages, not phased by the gore, or intrigued by the animals performing a strange “mating” ritual. However as well as the animals, the locations of these weird and wonderful creatures were often as fantastic as the animals. They stuck in my head like a camouflaged snow leopard, coming out to be seen only a little more often.

So I resolved in my head to visit some, and although there has been no slapping down of the cash, my mind is set to go. That’s my drive, to go see a world outside that one I live work and study in. So where to go? I figured it was best to play safe and make sure I'm there too long rather than too little time (I hate not having time to go and see things, life should not be an edited journey).

So I made up my mind to spend about two weeks next year in the Amazon rainforest and Galapagos Islands. Now, all I need is double student loan for next year and I'm sorted!