11th of September – just Drunk

11^th of September – just Drunk

We went out last night to Mosh, Ste___, Ni__, Jo__, Mi___, and some of jo__’s friends. They have upped drinks prices a little, and changed the lowest priced drink from a respectable blueberry-vodka mix, to some horrible cider-blueberry mix! It’s awful, but thankfully the middle floor was still selling the same old stuff we know and love. At first it seemed empty but eventually a lot of people turned up and it was “buzzing” as they say.

I danced for the first time in ages, months perhaps. I danced in the crazy and useless style I always do, but it feels good. I felt good, really good. Here is a guy that’s spent almost three months in a boring job cleaning stuff, seeing the bare minimum it seems of friends from home, and of course being quite depressed for a lot of that. The guy is in the space of a week, finished in work, moved back to Leicester, and back with his university mates, of course I'm happy.

You get the wonderful feeling that everything in the world is going to be fine, all your worries slip away and you are left with this great feeling of their being no better place to be than here, with these people. Moving your body in ways you cannot accurately defend or explain. Everything is subjective and even death and taxes are not so black and white, the feeling that everything is good. You’re one step closer to true everlasting happiness and in this new found state of mind you will always be happy.

I'm not going to argue against these points. But no, you’re not reaching some higher level. The world is not without bad things, and you never know where you will be so how can you say this is the best you have ever been. You’re just drunk, that’s all.

And that’s not to say the experience is meaningless, it’s very important to have these euphoric experiences, to feel as special as you wish to be. To be held in the hands of good fortune for the tiniest yet significant moment of your life in which you feel more than conceivable happy. Or maybe yes, you traverse the world of the unnatural and gain access to feeling and understanding beyond anything we can scientifically prove, or even imagine with our creative and romantic minds.

All that matters is that moment, one small moment, that requires neither booze or drugs or anything at all. Not even the dance floor, the friends, the location or that invisible spark of life which exists inside us all. The moment is yours and only you can understand it.