27th August – For my own good

I can’t wait to get back to Leicester. Not just for the parties, nights out, potential encounters or even university stuff. Another reason is this, free healthcare! Students, apparently don’t need to pay. Which is going to come in handy soon, but I'm not ready for confession time on these pages yet!

I will say this… I am ill, potentially very. I can think of 3 perhaps 4 major things which are wrong with me. One of them is after years of neglect now quite serious. Actually two, the second one has suffered probably ten or more years of neglect. The serious third cropped up within the past four or five months, I don’t even know what it is, but when it’s a problem, its very distressing.

I'm not however, a hypochondriac. I don’t go to the doctor everytime I get an itch. I go when there seems to be no other option. I would probably not be in the state I am now if I’d gone sooner. Lets hope I don’t end up with cancer (not one of my worries, but it does seem to run in the family), otherwise my diagnosis will probably be done post-mortem!

Moving away from such morbid subject matter… there’s another reason for having these problems addressed; to be healthy yes, but also to feel better about myself. Problem numbers one and two affect my confidence greatly. Problem number three just makes me paranoid and shit-scared, as they say.

And now, once again I'm up past midnight. The twilight typist strikes again. I suppose it’s a good time for reflection on ones day. I’d go to bed but problems one and two are flaring up again. Painfull and distressing. When they’ve gone though, its bedtime for me in a room filled with sleep music!